Tuesday, August 27, 2013
What is Happening to Me?
Did I make the right choices? Will I be useful in the years ahead? Will I be lonely? How will my life end?
I am crossing a season of life which a few women enter willingly. My friends seem to be aging prematurely and so do I. The thought of being home all day scares me.
I am afraid of crossing over from mid-forties to mid-fifties, moving from a familiar territory into the unknown.
I have learned how to avoid pain and how to survive life hurdles thrown at me. I coped, but now I’m dumbfounded at my present circumstances which have changed considerably. After a lifetime of ineffective ways of dealing with life and its disappointments, will I finally land smack in the middle of a mid-life crisis?
What new directions should I undertake to achieve a meaningful second adulthood? Since change is inevitable, can I go through the process smoothly without making major life changes?